HACKSAW JIM DOUGAN VS. THE SHARP SHOOTER

Explain this shame, I feel I'm reaching for this
But my roots are solid, not separating from the past
I fear these dreams, because there I live what I wrote off
Peel me from the sheets,

I'm trying to start a new day
Trying may be where I'm wrong
But what can I do when time's not mine?
It will soon be gone

Always straying off course
Never comprehend what's real until it’s dead
The drunkard in me is floored
The saint in me says "Find reason"
Always straying off course
Never comprehend what's real until it has died
The drunkard in me is floored
The saint in me says "Find reason while you’re alive"

I can't shake this sick yearn
I can't leave the silence I'm left with
If there's something I haven't done
I will never know
You grant me such heights, but I don't exist here
I'd never be here without, well that's just too much
I was hit with an anxious burn yesterday, leave it alone
I can't shade this ghost, and I am so sorry

Sorry may mean I'm too far gone
But what could I do for the pain I've caused?
I'm just undone
Like I'm heading for a hearse
Always find myself lurching and writhing, but why?
I never left what I adored
I, the coward avoids pride tonight
'Cause it's all I have learned

And this logic leaves me rejected
If there is something I can do
Let it breathe through me